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I deserve to have rest

I am incredibly tired.

I haven't been sleeping well for days.

Honestly, I was a bit too strict with myself because of that. I didn't understand what the hell was going on. I wanted to do more.

But then I realized something: the mental work I am doing, even if it cannot be seen, is insane.

I am creating every second of my life right now:

I am purging, facing things, letting go, and leaving things behind. I am rewiring my brain 24/7, shifting the way I think, and changing my beliefs about how the world works.

I am returning to my core—to who I was always meant to be.

It is an insane amount of work, even if it doesn't bring money, fame, or recognition.

And I am doing it at an incredible pace. What I have accomplished could be enough work for years.

It is an insane amount of mental work. If anyone told me they had achieved so much in such a short period of time, I would be incredibly proud of them, and I would tell them they deserve to rest.

So it is time to give myself that too.

And to tell myself that what I am doing right now is more than enough.

And people are starting to see the shift and the change.

How I sit in my inner peace, happy, being so unapologetically myself without the urge to protect myself. I don't need to protect myself from anyone anymore because I am the Sun. And no one can touch or hurt the Sun.

So I deserve to sit and enjoy the moment.

The changes within me.

The shift in the world around me—how it has started to reflect the person I truly am.

Not who I was.

There is still a lot of work left to do, but I deserve to rest.

I deserve my peace.

I deserve to say that simply existing was enough today.

Existence is mental work too.

I was so caged inside my own head, believing that I had to do more and more and more to be valuable.

No, I don't have to.

I deserve my rest.

The world will catch up.

I am not in a race against anyone.