My Analytical Words and What Hides Behind
Another interesting realization of mine is how analytical and cold my words can sound when I express myself in writing, especially in English. It is better in my native language, but it is still present there too.
How my "I love you" doesn't convey the depth of my feelings and desires behind it.
It is all about the cold "choice," the decision.
That I decide to start a relationship.
I decide to stay.
I am willing to work for it.
I choose, I decide—as if it were something that comes purely from my mind.
And how my "I love you" doesn't hold the deep emotions, the vulnerability, my soft heart, and the desires behind it.
How my words don't show these thoughts behind them:
"All I want to do is hug you and melt in your arms."
"I want to look into your eyes every single morning for the rest of my life."
"I would love for you to organize that date and let myself simply fall."
"I want you to rest your head on my lap under the starry sky and whisper little wishes to the shooting stars."
"All I want to do is make you smile and fall in love with life the way I fell in love with you."
"I want you to chase me around the house and hear the echo of our laughter."
"I want you to be my partner in crime, someone I can dream and create with."
"I want to be by your side through both the bright and the dark times."
"We are a team, and even if I am a free spirit, your opinion matters."
"I would love for you to see your reflection in my eyes: what an amazing, valuable person I see you as, someone who is worthy of all the love this world can hold."