Overcreation
As I progress on this playwriting journey, I am finally starting to see how it will actually come together. How much time I will need. What progress I have to make before I can actually start writing. And how much time the writing itself will take.
Luckily, what once felt overwhelming and almost mission impossible is slowly evolving into something that feels more than achievable.
And my multitasking skills will definitely help make it happen.
I'm not saying that writing 60,000–100,000 words in two months isn't a little ambitious...
Buuut...
Doable.
Definitely doable.
I achieved all the goals I set for today.
I'm kind of proud of myself.
But my brain feels completely overloaded.
So tomorrow...
I'll write the protagonist.
That will be a huge challenge.
Of course, the protagonist has to be the most complex character, and I have to know her almost as well as I know myself.
I have to understand how she ended up having a mental breakdown.
What external forces are driving her.
What motivates her.
What holds her back.
How the other characters influence her.
And how she changes throughout the play.
Because she cannot be the same person at the end of the story that she was at the beginning.
I have to decide what choices she needs to make during her journey.
And there are probably dozens of other aspects that my slightly worn-out brain can't even think about right now.
I think I made my brain work hard enough today that I won't have any problems with this stupid insomnia.
I am tired.
But satisfied.
Finally, I am tired because of satisfaction.
Because I know I made real progress on something meaningful.
Not because I had to spend the day doing something I absolutely hate and simply trying to survive it.
Now I just have to figure out how to make this my everyday life.
But one step at a time.
I don't have to solve every problem in my life overnight.
I think I'm going to get some rest now...
Although, knowing myself, I'll probably end up doomscrolling for fifteen minutes before I suddenly get inspired to start thinking about my vlog again.
Oh, God.
I don't think everything is entirely right inside my head.
But hey...
At this point, I'm too tired to overthink.
Maybe...
I'm finally reaching the state of overcreation.