Set Your Heart Ablaze
I don't think I have ever felt as determined as I do now. And I don't think I have ever felt this capable before.
I always knew there was an unstoppable force inside me that could achieve anything she wanted. But I could never find her.
Until now.
I just finished the first scene of my play, and honestly, it looks good. Not perfect, but good.
And it seems like I am really more of a storyteller than an actual writer.
For me, every platform is just a playground that leads to a certain goal: telling a story.
And every story has its perfect platform.
And what makes that platform perfect?
What you actually want to tell.
This story I am writing would work so much better on stage than anywhere else. I could probably turn it into a novel, but then it wouldn't be the same story anymore.
And finally, I really see how far I have come. How incredible what I have achieved truly is.
I became the person who has everything she ever dreamed of.
Not because I already have those things, but because I finally have the courage to take action.
To be myself.
To say what I want and what I need.
Silence doesn't feel like rejection anymore.
I am not afraid of success anymore.
And I am not afraid of showing who I really am.
Me submitting my short story about my miscarriage to a competition was such a huge step...
And I think I am not afraid to trust again anymore.
That doesn't mean I will trust anyone without thinking. But I am ready to build trust, to make room for new connections, new love, new possibilities, and new everything.
I want life to surprise me.
And I am finally ready to receive.
A little cautiously, but I am ready.
I put down my swords.
I don't need them anymore.
I am the center of myself, and I am strong enough to hold my emotions and find my way back to myself if I lose my way.
I am at a level of peace I never believed existed.
And I still love this quote from Demon Slayer:
“If you are feeling disheartened, that you are somehow not enough, set your heart ablaze. Dry your eyes and look ahead!”