Vlog
Maybe I am just overthinking this whole vlog thing.
Maybe there is nothing else I need.
Maybe it really is just a vlog.
Nothing more.
Nothing less.
Using it as the same fucking trash bin I use this blog for.
Just dumping all the shit that comes into my mind.
Maybe writing a script beforehand to hide my terrible English...
Oh, God.
I don't think I am ready for this.
Actually...
I don't think I will ever be ready for this.
I am sure something is wrong with my head...
Why can't I just be normal?
Why do I always have to be the weirdo?
Buuut...
I turned my fear into self-irony.
That has to count as progress.
I am definitely one step ahead of where I was at the beginning of the day.
I think my adaptability is something else...
Something I can genuinely be proud of.
I am still scared as fuck.
But at least I can laugh about it instead of crying in the corner.
Oh, God.
There really must be something wrong with me.
And I am still sitting here, writing this crap instead of sleeping.